Thursday, April 25, 2013

Mugging

Why do I still mug so hard when the CAP is stuck in that class? Why do I still feel stress when I know that CAP doesn't mean everything? All these boil down to one simple reason : goal accomplishment.
I can stop mugging, go travel around or at least chill during exam period but I didn't do that. I can watch movie and study as and when I like. But as a student, getting good result is the most direct goal to set. Ultimately, it is to keep the driving force of overcoming the challenges on going. It is to get self satisfaction. It is to make sure that I work hard at every stage of my life. And at the same time to really learn something useful out of my degree. And this, is why I study hard.
"We regret to inform you that you have been unsuccessful in your application."
This sentence does not only appear one or twice, up to now, I've received at least 5 from my Uni and related authorities.
One short and killing message I learned from this society : People do not give a damn shit on how hard you work, how many effort you put in, even though you fulfill all the requirements, you still need to be evaluated by them to get what you want.
Thank you. sincerely thank all of you for giving me this heart breaking disappointment again and again.  I applied because I do not have the capability to get what I want yet, but this does not mean I am okay with all these rejections.
If you want to get something you want, work hard and get it, and never ever look for recognition from others, it also means that you don't need to follow the advice or opinion, because ultimately, you are the one who feel the most.
NO more application for all these shits. one day I will get these all by myself.

Monday, April 22, 2013

no topic

it's 2:26 now, bed is calling me.
but I guess this thought should be blogged before it vanishes.
more than often, we set goal and strive for it.
and many times, the ultimate result is what we thought that cheers us up.
then when we got it, look at it, enjoy for a couple of minutes, then it's either we set another goal or recall the process.
See, this constantly setting goal and recalling the experience is what we are seeking, not so much of the final result
We laugh at the moment we fell, we recall why we cried when we failed
The thing is we actually enjoyed all these moments but we did not realize.
We feel thankful for every incident happened when we achieved the goal but we refuse to acknowledge it when it happened.
We always asked for a smooth journey but a smooth journey makes us want to set a higher goal because somehow we know that there's challenges embedded in achieving that goal to be overcome
So, enjoy every second of the life. We may have wasted some time idling, doing unrelated stuff, but it does not matter, because time spent to make us happy, to make us experience new thing, to cause us mistake is not wasted.
every move we take, every step we walk will definitely give us something. Acknowledge this and live the fullest of your own life, write your very own story.