Entrepreneurship #1

The word entrepreneur might be a little too big to be used in my situation but I still want to use it because it gives me sort of a 'premium' character.
In this series of blog, I'd like to blog down the journey of starting my own business, with my partner, also a childhood friend.
Unlike many of the books we get from the market that talk about the success of the business and very briefly go through the harsh time (the only way they express about the difficult is to explain it using "cashflow problem"), I will be writing about the details of the obstacles, my feeling and what I am going to do,
Hopefully one day I can be a enlighten millionaire to share about my story.

It's a bit too late to start writing now because I've actually been through a hell long of mental struggle and pressure especially when I was at the edge of committing to this decision. Well, better late than never, everything starts from somewhere.

Today was the first day I went to give out flyers, a form of offline marketing. It's pretty embarrassing I feel because I still have the ego of being a NUS graduate. While I was putting the flyers into the mailbox, I was thinking " why the hell am I doing this kind of work, why am I not getting a good salary, what expertise do I need for this kind of job "
It's not about the tiredness, rather the mixed feeling I have, the ego that I have to overcome.
Well, I got it done by 4:30pm. A sense of relief, not only because I do no need to give out anymore, but it's also because more I had gotten my job done, to spread the news and info about my products.
So eventually it boils down to task performance.
Lesson learnt : get the job done rationally, fuck the fluctuating emotion.

Nearly every night is a sleepless night, if not it'd be a drunk one. The journey is not smooth and life without income is just not easy at all. Seeing the savings depleting feels like I'm losing blood, dripping drop by drop. The vampire doesn't kill me in one shot, it tortures me every night. 

But I tell myself again and again : Hau, you chose this road, no one force you. You've gotta complete it, with proud 

"Don't screw things up, Hau", I whispered to myself, again and again.

But I failed. Too impetuous and it took over my mind.

"No more next time", I made myself a promise.

I just like this moment

Was busy taking photos of the glasses and the bag. So involved that I didn't even notice what was I taking. 

Left the room for dinner.

And entered to continue. Seeing this shopping bag in the light box, there's a sense of satisfaction out of sudden. 

Yes it's something simple, not really that magnificent. 

But it marks a milestone completed. And being able to design this, from sketched to this bag now standing in front of me, I pretty admire myself. 

Time to work. Jiayou!

kinda jealous friends who get to do intern/visit those famous startups in silicon valley.
but why not create one myself?
who says i need to be there to create one

hau - every step counts

看着一个星期一个星期的过去，发现时间真的不留人

好听点说，这星期我读了什么什么书，但读再多又有什么用

曾经读书是增广见闻，如今已变成逃离现实的一种方式

很害怕，这条路不容易

很害怕，朋友都有了一番成绩，我却原地不动

很害怕，这选择究竟是对或错

选了，就选了，算了，就开始吧

我要，有那么一天，能站在台上和大家分享我成功的故事

lesson learnt
no more job delegation
nobody is more trustworthy than yourself
clean your own shit cuz no one will buy you tissue paper, even though he says that it's cheap
break the problem down into small steps, get rid of it one bye one
face the problem and solve it, no running away, no matter how scary
others don't value your things and help as much as you do (or you thought they will)
spend below what your capability
别人帮你是人情不帮你是道理