But
understanding the law of the Universe, loss in something results in gain in
others. What did I gain? Time spent with family, time invested in Forex, time
doing nothing which I was starving during school time. The break gives me
time to think so much. SO much so that I can have two totally opposing thoughts
over a same matter. I doubted myself in doing things, at the same time I told
myself to persist to overcome.
Returning
home means pampering myself with unlimited freedom. So free to not working,
meeting up with friends, waking up after the room temperature hits 37, sleeping
4 hours before the sun rises. Ya, I have been doing one good thing,
accompanying dad to go hiking. Literally everyday. Till the stage that I am so
fit to break my own record to reach the summit in less than 3 quarter of an
hour.
Some
days when I woke up earlier, I did go for a jog enjoying the morning breeze,
and this is what they called 'appreciate the present'. And today, dad asked all
of us to go for a lunch. Sis drove, grandma seated at the front passenger seat
while we sat at the back. Having lunch/breakfast together is not as simple and
easy as last time. We now have our own things to do, own study period and
place. The second sis is flying to Canada which means the next return will see
her a bigger girl. Dad and mum will be older by then, and it's kinda sad to
realize this fact. Even the youngest sis is going to do diploma. And me, coming
out to work soon. We cannot make the time stop ticking, but we can exploit the
maximum out of every moment. Do not make yourself feel sad for the time passed,
rather happily accept every second that is coming. Because, every second only
visits you once.
Talking
with uncle gains me more insights, assuring me on the ability to make own
decision. Back then, they wanted me to do Civil Engin saying that the future is
bright. But now, they do realize that it's ain't easy to stay in this industry
and indirectly support me to chase for what I want. But I'm in the middle of
the OCEAN, rowing the boat halfway to the opposite island of Civil Engineer,
not a good time to make de-tour. It brings up another thought to me. It's time
for me to fly as high and as far as I want to. The next semester break will
mean travelling around the world. No more staying at home. I've done what I
should, so I can do what I wish.
It
also makes me realize how important the ability of earning money myself. There
may be a day when family support is no longer enough and I have to not only
stand by my own foot, I might need to run by myself.
'By
all means, make yourself hungry. Only then, you will find ways to get food. If
you are full, store it and it makes you rich.' quoted by me.
It's
time to pack my luggage and feeling. It's time to leave Eusoff and move to
Sheares. It's time to start a whole new year 3.
