My beloved sisters

while I was glancing through my blog account, saw a link of my sis in one of the column.

Yup, she left for tertiary study today. maybe a 4 to 5 year journey down the Design road.

She actually posted about her thought on blog and it did surprise me.

She likes to decorate her room like what she's doing but surprisingly she doesn't like people to visit her room but all the while, I did not really know and yet, I gave comments.

As day goes by, both of them or rather all of us grow up. They have their own thinking and directions in life. It's kinda sad that I don't know what's theirs unlike the old times when we had bed talk. 

It's not a bad thing though, but the lack of understanding makes me feel strange, especially when the actual thing is far varies from what I predicted.

I am now no longer the brother who guide them along and I actually don't need to. I should get used to the personal growth that makes each of them a different yet unique individual. 

They have grown up, the diamond-hard fact that I refuse to accept. Perhaps I should learn to let go the hand of holding them from chasing their own dreams. 

We were once noisy but soon to be quiet.

We were once childish but soon to be mature.

We were once children but soon to be adult.

But the responsibility as a brother will always be there.

Meet up in Ipoh (Boston sucksssss)

After months of struggling and days of rest, I went back Ipoh for a mini gathering.
Meeting the guys at 1030pm for EURO which started at 2am. After the match, we headed to Dim Sum Restaurant at 6am and that filled my hunger for dim sum.Met up at night with another group for tea.

It was simple, short and sweet.
Still feel the warmth at Ipoh, as if I just finished my STPM.
Thanks the friends for their good hospitality.
And the meet up.
Talk a lot. Talk cock of course.
and somehow F2 is going to produce 4 Civil Engineers!
one of them said next them can copy design like how we copied homework
FUCK YEA for that statement!

Form 6 life is really good.
And sometimes in life, we do not appreciate present.
But can can live happily with the past.
A photo, a video or a song reminds you how does the past look like.
Secondary school friends are the true one and we grow up together.

Now that we are in Uni, all of us still miss Form 6 than any other thing.
There should be a big one coming soon!
when everyone take a break from intern/school for a crazy one!

比较

发现自己越来越爱和别人比较
已经失去了原来比较的意义

比
应该是有标准的
是为了突破设定的标准而比

标准可以是自己
也可以是他人

但是当出发点不再是这样时，
比，只会让自己越踩越深
失去方向。
现在的我，也就迷失了方向

Perfectionist

Maybe I've been waiting for quite sometime
for the perfect one
Leave no chance and space for the imperfect
even with little weakness
Cannot forgive myself for making wrong decision
so I dont want to make any

I choose to wait

the essence of distress

MSL seniors always come back to organize distress session for us
this sem, without fail, they came back.
I truly feel the cheer and joy and stress-free session.
Meeting up with old friends and chit chatting.
No matter how well you blend into Singapore culture, it take effortless to mix with Malaysians, because you are part of them.
No mask, no pretending, no acting, every word comes out just as if you are back home.
This that really makes me happy is the meeting up with the old buddies.
Four of us, walked to the bbq pit, like old days.
I like the 'gangster' feeling.
The high confidence level and fearless feeling when we are together.
4 people share the same thinking. Its like the thought can spread to one another without saying it out.
Uni creates new friendship. But we are the one to make it last.

she

She has a boutique shop
selling the clothes she designs
the collections as decorations

she speaks English with others
but Chinese with me

she's tall
has eyeliner make up when the hair is short
the sporty yet elegant look
the long hair makes her looks like a girlish girl
every piece of garments fits her perfectly

the smile is heart melting
the voice is silvery and fruity
she just doesn't stop smiling and being thankful for what she has

sometimes it's good to stay alone
the luxurious of having companions is addictive
once it is gone, you just cant find it comfortable

maybe Im just an impromptu one
no planning and I like sudden decision
going with friends is fun
but expectation brings you down

why not make it this way
I go on with the alone way
and if friends are impromptu
then the outing will be fun
if there is no, at least I am fine with myself =)