If there's someone who can make the best mask in the world, I guess I am the person.
Hiding the downside of myself so well that many think that I am a very strong and capable guy.
But the truth is, I am not.
The analogy that a heart is similar to an onion never goes wrong.
If you're to peel of the onion a layer by a layer, at the very core of my heart, it's pretty much myself and loneliness.
I'd want to have a gf, someone to share my ups and downs with me.
Seeing my friends having someones to turn to when they face obstacles make me jealous.
I really hope to have someone who supports me, accompany me and listen to my problems.
Even my family think that I am strong, and that's the problem.
I couldn't show them the weak side of myself.
Or they do not think that I have problem.
That's why I always think and believe that the life is a lonely journey, you always have to stand on your own feet, and there's no on to lean on.
Blog, is my only place to shout.
Saturday, May 30, 2015
Thursday, May 28, 2015
When I was younger, erm, more precisely until 24 y/o, I thought things were simpler.
Start a biz, get sales, expand it and ya, a big boss I will be. A year later, things are different. When you've got to take care of yourself, all the expenses, then you feel the grind. I used to imagine what if I need to pay all the expenses myself, what if I need to pay for the car, what if I need to work for the money I use, things would be fun and proud if I could manage it well.
Now, I am in the situation. I wish that things are much smoother, no need to make ends meet, which is pretty tiring. Without a consistent paycheck and gotta come out with all the expenses, damnnnnn
But I actually embrace the situation, it makes me work harder and think further. Well, it's part of the life. You've gotta experience the bad to feel good, and been through poor life to know how to get rich!
Start a biz, get sales, expand it and ya, a big boss I will be. A year later, things are different. When you've got to take care of yourself, all the expenses, then you feel the grind. I used to imagine what if I need to pay all the expenses myself, what if I need to pay for the car, what if I need to work for the money I use, things would be fun and proud if I could manage it well.
Now, I am in the situation. I wish that things are much smoother, no need to make ends meet, which is pretty tiring. Without a consistent paycheck and gotta come out with all the expenses, damnnnnn
But I actually embrace the situation, it makes me work harder and think further. Well, it's part of the life. You've gotta experience the bad to feel good, and been through poor life to know how to get rich!
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Entreprenuership #4
Last weekend was a good one. We'd been busy preparing for our first bazaar. Decided 7 days before and confirmed with the organiser 4 days before the event, we had only 96 hours to do all the preparation, from literally nothing.
Two guys, jobs delegation. I did the banner and printing, getting help from my sister, while chaang hoong went to source for all the materials : palet, hardware, wood etc.
Fast forward to the event day. Friday was pretty quiet so we were quite worried. Was aiming to breakeven at least because together with the rental, we came out about RM800. So we needed sales desperately.
Saturday started with our first sales where a mum brought 5 kids to shop around. Ended up with two sales. That's when the ohm came in!
Hoong was busy with eye test, recommending lens and giving advice on frame shape while me busying spreading the words, telling people about our identity and making connections with others.
Sunday went well too with a support from a minister's wife.
Overall it was good. And very tiring.
Lesson learnt : Don't look down at bazaar like this, though it looks cheapo (depends on how you market / decorate it) it's a powerful marketing tools. One of the brand touch point. For the first time people get to feel us, we are so tangible.
More bazaar coming up! and we will work even harder and more consistent with our messages.
Two guys, jobs delegation. I did the banner and printing, getting help from my sister, while chaang hoong went to source for all the materials : palet, hardware, wood etc.
Fast forward to the event day. Friday was pretty quiet so we were quite worried. Was aiming to breakeven at least because together with the rental, we came out about RM800. So we needed sales desperately.
Saturday started with our first sales where a mum brought 5 kids to shop around. Ended up with two sales. That's when the ohm came in!
Hoong was busy with eye test, recommending lens and giving advice on frame shape while me busying spreading the words, telling people about our identity and making connections with others.
Sunday went well too with a support from a minister's wife.
Overall it was good. And very tiring.
Lesson learnt : Don't look down at bazaar like this, though it looks cheapo (depends on how you market / decorate it) it's a powerful marketing tools. One of the brand touch point. For the first time people get to feel us, we are so tangible.
More bazaar coming up! and we will work even harder and more consistent with our messages.
Monday, May 18, 2015
Entrepreneurship #3
去年的今天，剛剛完成了FYP presentation。心裡想的是背包旅行，完全對找工一點都不心急。
是天馬行空也是一意孤行的腦裡裝著一個創業夢。單人匹馬闖出一片天地。
可是，我錯了。
追夢是需要代價的。創業的路不是辛苦，而是坎坷。因為辛苦表示很努力把事情做好，回報就慢慢向著你來。但創業很坎坷，因為要稍微的成功，需要的不單只是盲目的努力，更需要運氣，堅持，恆心，不死的正能量，零消極想法。
不要說你很有毅力，因為真正的難題還沒出現。不要說你很積極，因為你還沒遇見一波又一波打擊你信心的事情。和同科的朋友越來越少聊天了，話題少了，自卑感多了，距離遠了。
不過算了吧，路是自己選的，沒人可怨。人生，就是要有波折，心才會跳得有感覺
Thursday, May 14, 2015
Entrepreneurship #2
We went to view shop today, looking for 1st floor.
The agent told us that it's 1st floor and requested for our SSM form and proposed a higher rental than what we gave to her. But we still went to view it because we really wanted a shop.
It turned out that it's not as promised and it's 2nd floor rather than 1st floor.
The owner again asked for the SSM for SOP matter. Long story short, we felt being cheated and eventually gave way to them.
Things flowing in my mind are
1. should we insist of not giving the document because it doesnt match our requirement so technically speaking we did not ask to view 2nd floor, so why should we give out the form?
2. since the only way to settle it peacefully is to handover the form, should we just handover?? but it's not our fault?
对别人的仁慈，就是对自己的残忍
The agent told us that it's 1st floor and requested for our SSM form and proposed a higher rental than what we gave to her. But we still went to view it because we really wanted a shop.
It turned out that it's not as promised and it's 2nd floor rather than 1st floor.
The owner again asked for the SSM for SOP matter. Long story short, we felt being cheated and eventually gave way to them.
Things flowing in my mind are
1. should we insist of not giving the document because it doesnt match our requirement so technically speaking we did not ask to view 2nd floor, so why should we give out the form?
2. since the only way to settle it peacefully is to handover the form, should we just handover?? but it's not our fault?
对别人的仁慈，就是对自己的残忍
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
Entrepreneurship #1
The word entrepreneur might be a little too big to be used in my situation but I still want to use it because it gives me sort of a 'premium' character.
In this series of blog, I'd like to blog down the journey of starting my own business, with my partner, also a childhood friend.
Unlike many of the books we get from the market that talk about the success of the business and very briefly go through the harsh time (the only way they express about the difficult is to explain it using "cashflow problem"), I will be writing about the details of the obstacles, my feeling and what I am going to do,
Hopefully one day I can be a enlighten millionaire to share about my story.
It's a bit too late to start writing now because I've actually been through a hell long of mental struggle and pressure especially when I was at the edge of committing to this decision. Well, better late than never, everything starts from somewhere.
Today was the first day I went to give out flyers, a form of offline marketing. It's pretty embarrassing I feel because I still have the ego of being a NUS graduate. While I was putting the flyers into the mailbox, I was thinking " why the hell am I doing this kind of work, why am I not getting a good salary, what expertise do I need for this kind of job "
It's not about the tiredness, rather the mixed feeling I have, the ego that I have to overcome.
Well, I got it done by 4:30pm. A sense of relief, not only because I do no need to give out anymore, but it's also because more I had gotten my job done, to spread the news and info about my products.
So eventually it boils down to task performance.
Lesson learnt : get the job done rationally, fuck the fluctuating emotion.
In this series of blog, I'd like to blog down the journey of starting my own business, with my partner, also a childhood friend.
Unlike many of the books we get from the market that talk about the success of the business and very briefly go through the harsh time (the only way they express about the difficult is to explain it using "cashflow problem"), I will be writing about the details of the obstacles, my feeling and what I am going to do,
Hopefully one day I can be a enlighten millionaire to share about my story.
It's a bit too late to start writing now because I've actually been through a hell long of mental struggle and pressure especially when I was at the edge of committing to this decision. Well, better late than never, everything starts from somewhere.
Today was the first day I went to give out flyers, a form of offline marketing. It's pretty embarrassing I feel because I still have the ego of being a NUS graduate. While I was putting the flyers into the mailbox, I was thinking " why the hell am I doing this kind of work, why am I not getting a good salary, what expertise do I need for this kind of job "
It's not about the tiredness, rather the mixed feeling I have, the ego that I have to overcome.
Well, I got it done by 4:30pm. A sense of relief, not only because I do no need to give out anymore, but it's also because more I had gotten my job done, to spread the news and info about my products.
So eventually it boils down to task performance.
Lesson learnt : get the job done rationally, fuck the fluctuating emotion.
Monday, May 11, 2015
Nearly every night is a sleepless night, if not it'd be a drunk one. The journey is not smooth and life without income is just not easy at all. Seeing the savings depleting feels like I'm losing blood, dripping drop by drop. The vampire doesn't kill me in one shot, it tortures me every night.
But I tell myself again and again : Hau, you chose this road, no one force you. You've gotta complete it, with proud
Thursday, May 7, 2015
Saturday, May 2, 2015
I just like this moment
Left the room for dinner.
And entered to continue. Seeing this shopping bag in the light box, there's a sense of satisfaction out of sudden.
Yes it's something simple, not really that magnificent.
But it marks a milestone completed. And being able to design this, from sketched to this bag now standing in front of me, I pretty admire myself.
Time to work. Jiayou!
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